2004-05-06
I am now on strict bed rest.I just got home from the hospital. My ultrasound was not good and my cervix is now down to .8 cm and dilated about a fingertip. So now I can only get up for bathroom breaks and to take a quick shower.
I'm a little bitter.
My SIL did drugs through out both her pregnancies. DRUGS!!! Granted, I think her kids are a little messed up, esp the oldest, (she's a real whacker!) But her pregnancys went great and her kids are basically healthy. That really pisses me off. Why am I having such a hard time having children?
Anyway, my first 6 week goal is to lay here and let this little one bake a little longer. The chances of his survival and quality of life are so slim at this point that it scares me. I talked to a neonatal specialist who informed me that it is so slim that the majority of health care workers do not recomend resessitation at 24 weeks gestation. They do at 25 weeks, but with the understanding that the survival and quality of life is still small. The further I carry, the better the chances that the baby will be healthy and strong. The statisics scare me so I will be laying down for sure. They want me to carry to 30-32 weeks and then try to carry to 35-36. Ok, I will do what I have to do.
I just hope they come up with some better shows on daytime TV!