2003-12-19
It happened way quicker than I ever expected.I am pregnant.
I just knew that one time we had sex and I realized that it was too close to my ovulation time. I could just tell. Then all this month I’ve been emotional, felt crampy, and my breasts have been achy. So I took a pregnancy test (actually three!) and they all came up positive.
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I’ve only told my husband and a couple of ladies I work with but no one else. We don’t plan on telling anyone for a couple of months now. It’s just too soon.
In 2003, I had a miscarriage at 19 weeks. The whole pregnancy was hard. I was so sick, and very stressed as it was an unexpected pregnancy, we were not married, nor was either of us prepared to be parents. As I was about to leave and raise my child on my own, E asked me to stay and become a family with him. I agreed and we got married. After we settled down and grew to the idea of having a little baby around, I miscarried.
He never really talked about it until this passed year. I never really thought it mattered to him or hurt him, but I have since found out differently. It was his idea for me to get a job so we could buy a house and start a family. I waited for him to decide when he was ready, because I thought I was always ready.
Now I don’t know.
I know it’s a little late to go back and I’m not saying that I regret that I’m pregnant, I think that I’m just scared.
What if something happens?
Although I’ve been taking my prenatals, not drinking or smoking, I have been eating like crap. I don’t think I realize the importance that healthy eating is to my little tiny baby yet. But I will have to soon; I only have 8 more months!!
Well, it’s moving weekend and my mom just got here. So many things are happening right now and my head is whirling.
I’ll update as soon as I get Internet service.
Have a great weekend!